"She was digging too DEEP this time"


"She screamed inside, then she kept quiet. She took a quick glance around, but everyone still scurried about doing their normal business like nothing really happened. She began to talk to herself, "But I screamed, how come no one heard me?" She rubbed her eyes again and opened them, but it was still the same feeling. She felt like no one could hear her. She felt completely abandoned.

"You mean no one understands what I'm going through? Do I really have to tell anyone before it can get into their brains that I really am in pain right now? Do I really have to give a lecture concerning all the things I've been going through? Do I? DO I?" Then she went back home that night, and she decided to make one last phone call. Maybe this phone call will save her life, she thought as the phone began to ring. It rang 5 times and went straight to voicemail..."hello, this is Teee..." But she didn't even let the personalized message play itself out. She threw the phone under her bed and she began to weep...she began to weep because she had never experienced this feeling of nostalgia before. She wept because in the past she was shielded...she was shielded by the love of friends and family, she was shielded by riches, by shelter, and by unfailing love. She was protected by a false covering. So she started a thinking process, "why me???" she asked, "why me???" As she was crying, she fell into a very deep sleep.

She started to dream...like John she was taken to a distant island. She woke up on the sea shore. And she saw Him...she saw an angel, she wasn't sure if He was Jesus, but she was certain He was from God, whoever He was. He didn't speak one word. He had a Book in His hands and He began to flip through the pages, the book was kind of huge so she could read the words as He flipped the pages...

"Why me?" Psalm 34:19 "Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the LORD delivers him out of them all..."

So she started to clean her tears...

"Why me?" Romans 8:19 "For the earnest expectation of the creation eagerly waits for the revealing of the sons of God."

So she stopped crying...

She turned to the angel and said, so the whole earth is watching me to see if God will answer my prayers? Is that it? Is that why all these things happened...wow, so people are waiting to see my God? People are watching to see the God I serve? Then she had a flash-back...she was remembering that she talked to someone, she was telling the person how she had faith that God was going to show up in her situation...but the person turned around and smiled, "I have faith too, but I think you should start thinking about other options because this situation is dead..."

So she stood up and started panting...then she started pacing back and forth...she was on her bare feet, so she felt the sharp stones under her feet. She felt her strength coming back to life...

Joel 2:25-27 “ So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten, the crawling locust, the consuming locust, and the chewing locust, My great army which I sent among you. You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied, and praise the name of the LORD your God, Who has dealt wondrously with you; And My people shall NEVER be put to shame. Then you shall know that I am in the midst of Israel: I am the LORD your God and there is no other. My people shall NEVER be put to shame"
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So the girl woke up from her dream...and God answered her prayers that same day. On the same night, she received the check she was praying for...it felt like a dream, but this time it was real. The proof was in her hands. So someone heard her actually...God heard those screams inside. Her school fees is now all *PAID FOR* enough to continue...
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**This is based on a TRUE LIFE story. This girl was ME**
**This is indeed an open testimony of how God came through for me TONIGHT** Errm...February 28th, 2007. Loll...

24 comments:

Bernard said...

God's love is more than we can fathom. When we think time is running out that is when God comes into the scene. He doesn't run on our HRS/MINS/SEC kind of clock. These are probably moments in his eyes. When trouble sorrounds there is a God, and he's standing near. If you ever wonder if anybody really cares Does anyone know my deepest innermost feelings. There is a God and he'll be right there.

LondonBuki said...

This is beautiful... I was reading it and I hoped it was not fiction... and then to find out it happened to you.

Thank you for this Nilla, I have days when I am in doubt about God's miraculous healing of my Mummy but this really really reassured me today... God bless you over and over again. May he overwhelm you with his love and continue to answer your prayers and surprise you.

Thanks so much for this... thank you.

Thank God for what he's done for you and what is to come :-)

P.S. My word verification is 'smylie'! What a coincidence :-)

Nilla said...

@ Jaycee
I tried posting a comment earlier this morning, and your word verification wasn't showing (BLOGGER AGAIN!!..lol), infact it wasn't showing on all the blogs I went to with word verification.
Anyways I can't remember all that I had to say, but I wanted to say I'm happy for you...that God answered your prayer.
Nice one as always thanks.

@ Londonbuki
You got my name in your comment instead of Jaycee...lol
It's nice to now you had me in mind :-)

The Life of a Stranger called me said...

You know what Jaycee Ive been learning that nothing happens by chance that God already planned it. And I can concur with your testimoney casue God really is too much - the way He does things - like spontaneous - but you dont realise it was the time for that blessing to manifest. I praise and thank God for your life and pray that the Lord will continue to use you to touch and enrich the lives of others. Stay blessed.

LondonBuki said...

@Jaycee I have no idea how I put Nilla's name instead of yours!

I was gonna delete my comment and put one up with your name... I will just edit the comment below(and not delete the one above):

This is beautiful... I was reading it and I hoped it was not fiction... and then to find out it happened to you.

Thank you for this Jaycee, I have days when I am in doubt about God's miraculous healing of my Mummy but this really really reassured me today... God bless you over and over again. May he overwhelm you with his love and continue to answer your prayers and surprise you.

Thanks so much for this... thank you.

Thank God for what he's done for you and what is to come :-)

P.S. My word verification is 'smylie'! What a coincidence :-)


@Nilla Thanks for alerting me... The prayers are for you as well o... AMEN!!! Amen to them all!

In my head and around me said...

We are constantly surrounded by God's help and Love. We only need to ask.

Nice Post

Favoured Girl said...

This is a wonderful testimony of God's faithfulness. I've had many experiences like that too. When I think about the mountains that I face, sometimes I am discouraged. Thank you for making me remember that I serve a FAITHFUL God. He has been there for me in the past many many times, so I can be sure that He is here for me right now. Thanks girl!

bhookey84 said...

wow, There are times when we wonder why? but i am assured that his thoughts towards me are good and not evil, to get that expected end(that verse came to me, i might have screwed it up tho but u get)God will continue to bless u jayccee, between i have half of a yelllow sun, if u want to read it , lemme know okay
@ londonbuki, God is truly speakin to u , it is well! mummy is well!

Jaycee said...

@ Bernard...I'm proud to say that I now know God as a God Who is always "ON TIME"...I used to make mouth before, but now I've experienced Him...LIVE!!! LOL...school fees is paid for ~ "all paid for"...YIKES...still trying to believe! Gotta make it PUBLIC!

@ London Buki...this testimony is even SMALL...when God does it for your mummy, you won't be able to keep silent...you'll just be like, "Are You Serious God??? So everything they've been saying about You is TRUE?" You'll be lost for words...when my check came through, I didn't even have any "words" to say...lollll...(and I thought I knew how to praise God before, I better get back to lesson #1).

@ Nilla...thank God. Lolll...how won't she have been thinking abt u? Madam, u're just popular like that now!!! He he...

@ LIFE...I'm speechless cos of the things you said today on the phone (TERC runs)...this girl, you can preach sha...I thank God for how much of the "WORD" God has placed in you, I thank God for your passion...and just like the parable of the sower in the Bible, I pray that every WORD that you know and have received from God would not be stolen by devouring birds, would not fall on thorns, and would not be captured by the IRRELEVANT riches of this world. That your eyes will be FIXATED on God and the GOAL...and through you, many will be BLESSED. And in return, they shall rise up and call you BLESSED. You will be ENLARGED, just like Jabez...and at the end of the day, you won't even be able to recognize yourself.

@ In My Head...thanks girlie...

@ Favored girl...ahhhh...He's Faithful o..."that's His Name..." Lolll

@ Bhookey...he he...thanks for confessing. Don't be surprised if I just show up in front of your room upstairs demanding for that paperback...~muah~

Have a blessed week...I'll post a scripture I learnt from TERC this morning at 5am. T.E.R.C is a great thing that God just started by CHERUB (Bijou)...so go to her blogger page for more details...

On the conference today were : Life, Diamond, T-minx, Cherub (of course), and moi. Last week Miguel was also there...so feel free to call...we learn a lot abt the WORD.

Naija Vixen said...

mane. i will hav 2 get mad at blogger.com, it comes up with diff issues per week!! d(d word verifcation thingy) anyways that was just beautiful..wen pple ask me y do i believe in God, m like the question is y dont u...with things going on around d world..with testimonies like urs...mane i know i'm a Living Testimony that God has bin and He is n 4eva He will be..
have a Blessed wknd babe!

Vera Ezimora said...

Jaycee, I cried while I was reading this. It is really, really great and very inspiring. I have been believing God for a huge miracle.

...Thanks a lot, Jaycee

mack said...

Shouldn't I just sell all my belongings and give them to the poor, and become thy disciple?

You r a gem. I just figured that out.

Jaycee said...

@ Naijavixen...when people ask me...same thing...I'm like, "look all around you? Who created light? Who created snow? In Job 38, God was asking Job who created the seas and commanded the seas that they can only come SO FAR and 'here' their proud waves must stop? Then lastly, who shows up at the very last SECOND and performs miracles such as these? Blows my mind. I didn't even give the full story...my dean made a comment saying, "if I don't see the check in my hand tomorrow, then you can forget about coming to class..." And guess what? Truly, God defended His Name and the check was in the hands of my dean the very next morning...WHO DOES THAT? My dean was in shock!

@ Vera...the confidence I have in God right now has sky-rocketed, because He answered at the VERY LAST SECOND (like when I didn't have a PLAN B)...wait, and I promise u...I'll be reading a "miracle post" in ur blog real soon...100% confidence...

@ Mack...lol...silly you...u can do that for Jesus though...muah!

The Life of a Stranger called me said...

@Jayceeeee- Amen girlfriend - I claim all the blessing in Jesus name. Gosh what will we do without your inspiring words and vision. You are indeed a blessing. Have a blessed weekend.

curvyice said...

hey gurl,
God is faithful, he takes care of his own oh. as i was reading this, a song came to my mind:
he will do it again(3x)
just take a look at where u are now
and where u ahve been
hasnt he always come true for u
he is the same now as then
you may not know how, u may not know wen but he will do it again.
yea the dude(GOD) ALWAYS does make impossibles possible.\hang in there chicka, thanks GOD FOR U.
GRACE AND PEACE.

April said...

This is beautiful. God is good, all the time!

chioma said...

Thats our God..always on time! He is God all by himself and all Glory goes to him alone.. Beutiful and encouraging testimony..ps still haven't received the devotional..Stay blessed

Cherub (former Bijouxoxo) said...
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Cherub (former Bijouxoxo) said...

He's an on time God. When men say there's a casting down, that's when God decides to lift u up. This is truly a wonderful testimony and it has lifted my spirit up that God still hears our cry unto him. He's forever faithful, and i tap into the anointing that the same God that came through for you, will alos come thru regarding the job offer and my exam.

Jaycee said...

@ Cherub...He's already done it. "Faith is the substance of things hoped for...the EVIDENCE of things NOT SEEN..."

Jaycee said...

@ curvyice, april & Chioma...I'm so glad that u find this story amazing...God IS amazing...He does miracles that can't be ascribed to anyone else! (thanks)...

Tisha said...

This is beautiful.

I am encouraged.

I have faith in God too and it grows stronger everyday as i read God's word.

Faith comes by hearing and hearing, fear comes by hearing and hearing too. I walk with faith-filled people and avoid fear or unbelief filled people.

I believe in God and that He comes through when His children call. I have proofs though and even if i did not have proofs i would still believe. I am greatly loved and highly favored

Anonymous said...

God is really amazing..your story is really inspiring and i know he will show His greatness in my life today. Thanks alot

Jaycee said...

@Anonymous...AMEN. Thank God you read this. I can honestly tell you that it's true what they say, "Since I was born, I have never seen the righteous forsaken."