**Undone**



In truth, how can you describe something when, in its existence you are dissolved, in its contemplation you are undone, in its purity you are intoxicated, in your surrender you are fulfilled, in your joy you are parted from yourself? - Rabia

I was reading one of my numerous e-journals some minutes ago and I found the quote above, a quote I fell in love with just a couple of years ago. Any time I read this I feel the author was in a state of inexplicable joy that cannot really be defined by words. I feel as though he may have ripped the dictionary open, spliced about one hundred words, selected some words at random, and yet still couldn't define exactly how he felt. A state of inexplicable joy. Wouldn't you want to feel a type of joy that can't be described? Wouldn't you want to be in that place where you're lost in the moment? I know I would want to be there all the time. Though sorrow may come, but I want joy to rise up within me in the morning. Reminds me of Habakkuk 3:17-19 that says,

"Though the fig tree may not blossom,
Nor fruit be on the vines;
Though the labor of the olive may fail,
And the fields yield no food;
Though the flock may be cut off from the fold,
And there be no herd in the stalls—
Yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will joy in the God of my salvation.
The LORD God is my strength;
He will make my feet like deer’s feet,
And He will make me walk on my high hills."

Yet...I will rejoice in the Lord, I will JOY in the God of my salvation. But notice something here: the writer said that in the process of this joy God will make his feet like deer's feet. So I hopped along to investigate what exactly deer's feet were all about. I found out that deers have claws on their feet and they run very swiftly, that is 35 miles per hour. They also posess a great leaping ability. They bound swiftly across a dense forest or prairie, often jumping 8 feet into the air. I also found out that it is very hard to catch a deer as prey because their feet are swift. Before you target them they would have already leaped 8 feet into the air and landed in another place. This is exactly how our feet should be as children of God. We should not stay in one spot long enough to let the enemy catch us as prey. When the enemy thinks he's gotten us in a certain area, we should have leaped more than 8 feet into the air into another area of success and joy.

How can you be in this inexplicable state of outright bliss? There's only one answer, and yes though it may sound like a cliche to you, there's still only one answer. Only God can give you joy like no one else can. No matter how much you place your all in something else, you'll never really feel complete unless you are in the arms of your Creator. If you haven't found God yet, ask Him to reveal Himself to you and He will.

"Where you there when I laid the foundations of the earth?" asked God, when He questioned a man called Job out of the whirlwinds...and I can imagine what response would be the correct response to give. From reading the bible I realized that Job kept quiet and I'm guessing he was stuck in a state of no return. There was no possible way he could answer that except he could first define "foundations of the earth," which of course he couldn't. So he surrendered himself to his Creator as his Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and the End...the One Who was, Who is, and Who is to come...the One who owns the book of your life's story and the Author of all the chapters of your book.

When I think about God, I'm undone. When I think of God's power, I'm lost in sweet abandon. When I think about His holiness, I am confined to a perpetual state of momentum. When I think about His size, I am reduced in my knowledge of mathematics. When I think about His love for me, how He forgives me of my repetitive sinful acts, I am lost in a moment of joy. When I think of His breath, and I imagine how He breathed life into my dry lifeless body, I am stunned beyond proportion. Then when I think about His love, how He can love someone like me, despite all my needless flaws, I just stand there in awe of His presence. I am indeed undone. As rabia said in that quote above, in my surrender I am fulfilled. In my joy I am parted from myself.

17 comments:

Uzo said...

True....Not putting oneself in a potentially dangerous situation is a good idea as well....

Love this...

olubern said...

My feet are swift as the deer's. While I joyfully leap in his presence, the devil is confused cos catching up with me is impossible. Thank God. The Joy of the lord is forever existent in my life and the life of my loved ones. Amen!

disgodkidd said...

and i didn't get to meet you?....beautiful

Olamild said...

God is love
some people still don't know
He gives joy
The kind of joy man needs
Some go out in search of love that fails
Know it's true
Nobody else can give u the kind of love/joy that God gives


I was blessed by this post.

Anonymous said...

I've thought deep and hard about this and have come to the conclusion that "I'm depressed" or should I say, "I suffer from depression". Yes, there are times when something happens and I'm all happy, but in normal times (when there's nothing negative happening neither is there something good happening, I feel this "restlessness" or "lack of joy".

I know the Bible says the "Joy of the Lord is our strength" and we should be "joyful in all situations". I've tried to do this, but I still feel there's something missing. I've prayed about this, am still praying, but I don't know what to do.

The downside of this is that when things go wrong, I really feel terrible. I'm a Xtian, but still there's something missing, and I really don't know what to do.

webround said...

simply Great

Keshi said...

ty for stopping by my blog. U hv a great blog here.

God is in u...u just hv to find Him. Looks like u hv. :) Great post!

Keshi.

!*!*!*!*!Fresh and Fab!*!*!*!*! said...

love the blog hun

Jaycee said...

@ Uzo...very true. Putting ourselves in a potentially dangerous situation is def not a good idea.

@ Olubern...Amen (smile)

@ Disgodkidd...*sigh* Lol.

@ Olamild...you know the bible cannot even define the length or width of God's love? Lolll. Psalm 103:11-12 says, "For as high as the heavens are high above the earth, so great is His mercy toward those who fear Him. As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us." Paul also says in Romans 8: 38-39, "I am persuaded that neither death nor life...nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God..." So if we're trying to look for love in the wrong places we're just suffering ourselves...God's love for us is as high as the heavens (which we really can't calculate the height of the heavens).

@ Anonymous, I think most of us have felt that way before...I remember once I wondered why sometimes I'll be all hyped up and at other times I'm moody. And then I prayed abt it.

See YOU have the power not to be depressed, because if you are God's child, then God who dwells in your temple is bigger than the spirit of depression ("He that is in you is greater than he that is in the world.") You have to keep speaking the word of God back to yourself...Not to say there won't be times when u won't be sad about certain bad things that may have happened to you or your family, but God is the One Who can lead a person out of the wilderness, Psalm 107:4-7, "They wandered in the wilderness in a desolate way; they found no city to dwell in. Hungry and thirsty, their soul fainted in them. Then they CRIED out to the Lord in their trouble, and He delivered them out of their distresses. And He led them forth by the RIGHT WAY, that they might go to a city for a dwelling place." May God lead you into the right way...a place away from depression, in Jesus Name. Amen.

Therefore, it will be an abnormal thing for a child of God to constantly be sad every single time. Keep prophesying JOY to your body and you will start noticing changes. Another very important thing that will help is if you have a good person to talk to (and I mean someone who you know is an example to you in the things of God), not just any friend or any person (some friends will even depress u more). Someone who can pray with you and someone who you can be accountable to.

Lastly, the devil always tries to remind us of our past sins. Maybe u've done something bad in ur past and the devil keeps reminding you (the bible says that the devil is the accuser of the brethren, so you shouldn't expect less from him). Look, those things in your past are HISTORY...it's time for a new life. God has been waiting for you to run into His open arms since the day you found God. Say a prayer to God, confess all the things u did, and let that be the LAST CONFESSION. It's over. It's history. You're now brand NEW. Move on and enjoy ur new life. God bless you and I'm glad u read this post. If u want to talk further, I'm available.

@ WebRound...thank God.

@ Keshi...yes, God is just waiting to be found by each of us. He's right there waiting, if we can just "believe."

@ Fresh&Fab...(*winks*)

aworan said...

That's deep....

chichi said...

really loved ur reply to anon. i didnt get dat revlation till sum tyme last year.

we do choose... i never knew it was that simple really. and by his infinite grace i have been choosing joy and peace everyday...

do drop by my blog if u can...

your blog is truly uplifitng to say the least.
thank God for you!!
his peace.chichi

Allied said...

I so love your response to anonymous.. I got something out of it myself.. speak to you on friday

Omosewa said...

WOW, inspiring as always. Great weekend babe!

Writefreak said...

Hmm...i read it and peace flooded over me...His love is sweeter that life and like you say it, i am undone when i try to fathom its depth!

Remi, United Kingdom said...

Oh my, Jaycee I love this post… I am sitting at my desk reading and remembering
a precious encounter I had a couple of years ago – in 2006
I was at my desk at work typing happily away, Vicki Yohe blasting in my ear
And started praising and worshiping with her songs, and then suddenly I was transported to the very bosom of God.
I was wrapped in something unexplainable – up until this very moment I cannot and probably will not be able to explain it fully.
It is something that needs to be experienced. Everything simply melted away; I could almost feel His breath on my face,
His caress, I could almost touch him, but of course I couldn't, but then I could! It was awesome, so I can somewhat relate to the
" A state of inexplicable joy" this writer describes. And to cap it all, as intense as it was, I was made to understand that the experience, which lasted only a few minutes, was a tiny, droplet size glimpse of the immense and total joy that can be found in God.
Yes Jaycee, that type of Joy can only be found in God.
Keep the fire burning, much love

Simi Speaks said...

such an awesome post!

love love what you do..

mosie said...

Hanging in there, Jay.
Thanks for stopping by and checking in. :)
P.S. taking your Rabia quote.