**Undone**

In truth, how can you describe something when, in its existence you are dissolved, in its contemplation you are undone, in its purity you are intoxicated, in your surrender you are fulfilled, in your joy you are parted from yourself? - Rabia

I was reading one of my numerous e-journals some minutes ago and I found the quote above, a quote I fell in love with just a couple of years ago. Any time I read this I feel the author was in a state of inexplicable joy that cannot really be defined by words. I feel as though he may have ripped the dictionary open, spliced about one hundred words, selected some words at random, and yet still couldn't define exactly how he felt. A state of inexplicable joy. Wouldn't you want to feel a type of joy that can't be described? Wouldn't you want to be in that place where you're lost in the moment? I know I would want to be there all the time. Though sorrow may come, but I want joy to rise up within me in the morning. Reminds me of Habakkuk 3:17-19 that says,

"Though the fig tree may not blossom,

Nor fruit be on the vines;

Though the labor of the olive may fail,

And the fields yield no food;

Though the flock may be cut off from the fold,

And there be no herd in the stalls—

Yet I will rejoice in the LORD,

I will joy in the God of my salvation.

The LORD God is my strength;

He will make my feet like deer’s feet,

And He will make me walk on my high hills."

Yet...I will rejoice in the Lord, I will JOY in the God of my salvation. But notice something here: the writer said that in the process of this joy God will make his feet like deer's feet. So I hopped along to investigate what exactly deer's feet were all about. I found out that deers have claws on their feet and they run very swiftly, that is 35 miles per hour. They also posess a great leaping ability. They bound swiftly across a dense forest or prairie, often jumping 8 feet into the air. I also found out that it is very hard to catch a deer as prey because their feet are swift. Before you target them they would have already leaped 8 feet into the air and landed in another place. This is exactly how our feet should be as children of God. We should not stay in one spot long enough to let the enemy catch us as prey. When the enemy thinks he's gotten us in a certain area, we should have leaped more than 8 feet into the air into another area of success and joy.

How can you be in this inexplicable state of outright bliss? There's only one answer, and yes though it may sound like a cliche to you, there's still only one answer. Only God can give you joy like no one else can. No matter how much you place your all in something else, you'll never really feel complete unless you are in the arms of your Creator. If you haven't found God yet, ask Him to reveal Himself to you and He will.

"Where you there when I laid the foundations of the earth?" asked God, when He questioned a man called Job out of the whirlwinds...and I can imagine what response would be the correct response to give. From reading the bible I realized that Job kept quiet and I'm guessing he was stuck in a state of no return. There was no possible way he could answer that except he could first define "foundations of the earth," which of course he couldn't. So he surrendered himself to his Creator as his Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and the End...the One Who was, Who is, and Who is to come...the One who owns the book of your life's story and the Author of all the chapters of your book.

When I think about God, I'm undone. When I think of God's power, I'm lost in sweet abandon. When I think about His holiness, I am confined to a perpetual state of momentum. When I think about His size, I am reduced in my knowledge of mathematics. When I think about His love for me, how He forgives me of my repetitive sinful acts, I am lost in a moment of joy. When I think of His breath, and I imagine how He breathed life into my dry lifeless body, I am stunned beyond proportion. Then when I think about His love, how He can love someone like me, despite all my needless flaws, I just stand there in awe of His presence. I am indeed undone. As rabia said in that quote above, in my surrender I am fulfilled. In my joy I am parted from myself.