Then I said..."I'm Lost."


This story is about me:

Not so many hours ago, I sat down to calculate the episodes of my life. The things I needed to be accountable and responsible for began to flood me like a river overflowing its bank. Things such as...bills, student loans, repayment plans, furthering my education, inspirational ideas, small business entrepreneurial innovations...things that involved the power to make wealth and become a banner that nothing is impossible for such a person such as myself...things that were bigger than my imagination.
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I honestly felt lost. Infact, I received a phone call this morning that took me unawares, slicing me to the pit of my stomach with questions I could not answer. This really caused me to feel helpless. And then I lay on my bed, stopped for a second and said..."Lord, I am lost." The most adequate words that I felt I could find. Because I really felt lost. Simple and unrevised.

But this was the response I got...in the silence of the atmosphere in my bedroom, I heard a voice say, "No, you're not lost. You were lost before, but you were found by Me." The voice came immediately. I didn't even get the chance to wallow in self-pity for a second. It came in a still soft voice. I stayed still and the interpretation I got was:

"Look, child...you are not lost. Before the problems came I already created a way of escape. I have already created the pattern by which what you consider as hopelessness will eventually give hope to many. See, how will they understand that I am God if your problems are not bigger than what you can handle? I have to reveal Myself to those who are looking. So your story can be bigger."

Somehow, I just know that I am supposed to tell the story...the story of my survival in an economical down-trodden society...

And in that story, the credits sure will NOT be mine...

21 comments:

good naija girl said...

That sure is powerful and you're already an inspiration! It's so true that if our problems weren't bigger than we could handle (in our own power), we'd never think to turn to God.

Have a lovely weekend.

Lolia said...

You remind me everyday how important our faith is...^_^

And I really appreciate that...I really do...

simeone said...

you are already cheering some people on my dear.." in this world you would encounter challenges , but fear not o..He has overcome..
peace

Rita said...

So very like God to show up when we openly come to Him. I am sure there is a lot of testimonies to share. To God be d glory.

You are bigger and greater than your dreams...

Remi, United Kingdom said...

That was God, the holy spirit speaking to you...! Isn't he awesome? And it's true, if we had the same size problems and are on the same path, the same road like everyone else in the world, how do they then know we have a God who specialises in impossibilities.

Like God has told you, you are not lost - and you must remember that as a child of the most High God "there are no impossibilities wihtin your realities" I pray that by God's grace, he gives you the stillness, the insight and understanding of what you need to do for your part, to make his glory shown through your difficulties, responsibilities and whatever you are going through. And the wisdom and spirit of ability, to work and apply it all, whilst walking with God - cause guess what? He will be with you all the way through.

Issues & problems of today are testimonies for tomorrow. Lots of luv x

Believer said...

Wonderful, thank God that He speaks to us just when we need it the most. Be encouraged my sister, one step at a time you will find Him enabling me to achieve those goals.

webround said...

last week, i read jonah 2:1b - "from the depths of the grave, i called for help and u listened to my cry." that gave me peace and i quote that verse when i suddenly feel overwhelmed - bills, student loans, the economy...etc

incidentally, i've also come to understand the saying "if you can't give to God from the little you have, you can't give when you have more". When i was in school, it was "easier" to give a certain % to charity monthly. Now i'm working and earning much more,but guess what - suddenly it seems difficult. why? now i have to pay house rent (double school rate), internet fees, gas/heating, student loan, car loan, etc. it seems all the money being earned has legs. Every month, i pray for grace to stick to my committment.

nevender said...

This was key for me.

"Before the problems came I already created a way of escape. I have already created the pattern by which what you consider as hopelessness will eventually give hope.."

Afrobabe said...

Someone told me recently during a trying period that if there is no test...there can be no testimony....

the tests will keep coming, trials, pain, hurt but u no what???


YOU ARE NOT LOST!!!

~Sirius~ said...

I'd like to rephrase your story- God cannot give you MORE than you can Bear:-)
Therefore being lost isn't even an option, we find ourselves in certain situations to serve specific purposes, also to learn and prepare ourselves for what He has called us to be.

To Him be all the glory.....

Anonymous said...

Your post is very timely as I am going through a phase right now.

God's grace is ever sufficient..

adebanji said...

Praise God!

The Life of a Stranger called me said...

This story of yours reminded me of a time (like 3weeks ago) when I too went to bed, lying there helpless, and wandering, why is mine different? Why is my testimony different? And the Lord took me to a higher ground. So high I felt like I was hovering near the sky, and He said to me, look down, and I did, and He said, what do you see, I replied saying, I see the outlines of the waters, the sea, the ocean. And He said, that is how high I have raised you.

Then He said to me look up, I could see the constellations, the stars in the sky, so far from me, so bright, so beautiful, then He said to me, what do you see, I said wow, this is beautiful, He said to me, as far as these are from you, so are my thoughts and my ways.

So I woke up the next day, and asked the Lord again, what does this still mean.

NaijaBabe said...

Faith...a powerful thing

Shubby Doo said...

well said.

you can never be lost to him...he is the Good Shepherd...

whenever you feel like this hun, lift your heart to the Lord and he will always carry you through your troubles...

thru the dark times and the good times...he is always with u;-)

Shubby Doo said...

well said.

you can never be lost to him...he is the Good Shepherd...

whenever you feel like this hun, lift your heart to the Lord and he will always carry you through your troubles...

thru the dark times and the good times...he is always with u;-)

Jaycee said...

Wow...@ all ur responses

I'm glad that He continues to teach us how to stand, with every passing moment. The book of Psalms says that "He prepares our fingers for battle."

That's why they say BOOT CAMP is a difficult place...

Olamild said...

After reading this post,
all I can say/sing is:

How Great is our God
sing with me
How Great is our God
all will See
How Great
How Great is our God


I will be rendering this song at a gospel concert next monday. God is really gr8

Street Preacher said...

wow... this really sounds like me right now... thanks for inspiration and resounding the call to hope!

mystoriesmytestimonies said...

God dey....
He is Awesome....
enjoy ur week

The poets voice ~~~ said...

you were lost but you are NOW found! For Christ Jesus which is in you is the hope of Glory!..let others see the hope you have.Amen