-The KiLLer-


An excerpt from a personal project:

Josiah was on the edge about something. He put the canvas on the stand and took out the paint brush from the box. He stood up. He walked a few inches away from where the canvas was standing. For the next one minute, his eyes were staring at his unfinished piece. But his mind was on a rampant rage. The kind of fiery rage that could not be quenched with any calming liquids.

He paced up and down the room and finally went to stand by his open window. His apartment was hidden in one of the most beautiful districts in Paris. Right here, from his window, he could see what he personally called a "triumphant reminder." The Arc de Triomphe stood tall, a structure twice the size of the famous Roman Arch of Constantine. The first day he set his eyes on it, he was afraid. Slowly, he came to realize that his rigid fright was not because the sight of the arc was daunting, but because its name was haunting: Arc de Triomphe meant Arc of victory. The names of unsung French heroes, soldiers who died at war, as well as 558 generals, were inscribed on the body of the structure.

Somehow, each time he looked at the arc, he was not reminded of the soldiers. Rather, he was reminded of himself. He already felt like a dead man, but he was just walking in a living body. A physically incapacitated man living in a fit muscular body. But yet, each time as he looked on at the structure, he knew that it stood there to constantly remind him that he had victory over death. It was reminding him that he could become anything he wanted if he could just put his mind to it. It was reminding him that he had a mission here on earth, to paint and set the emotions of the world ablaze. Yet, he could not bear the feeling of being alive. He was a self-killer.

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Some people have blamed their sad fates on witches and wizards, like that story of those witch children which was all over the blogosphere a while back. Some have blamed their fates on their forefathers, saying that their lives are cursed. Some have no way to trace their fate, but yet they just kill themselves for free. They are self killers!

But do you know that not every bad fate is as a result of someone cursing you? Or do you not know that a curse without a cause cannot alight (Proverbs 26:2)? Do you know that if God has not spoken a curse over your life no curse can stand against you? Did you know that if God is for you, no one else can be against you (Romans 8:28-31)?
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Most times, we are the ones who kill our own dreams and visions. Most times, we are the ones who are our own killers. We have a dream, but we are not bold enough to accomplish it. For you who is reading, please stop waiting for someone to undo the curse or to bless you...you need to push yourself now. Yes, you can do it. Let whoever lied to you be a liar and God be true. Don't be a killer, be a life-giver. Give yourself life and open your own hand to receive your blessings from God. Do not hold yourself a prisoner when no one has put you in chains. Be released to live your dreams today. May God order your steps in the right direction of your destiny, in Jesus Name. Amen :)

"Alas, this man will never do anything, because he is already thinking of the end before he has even begun"- Pope Leo X.

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31 comments:

Olufunke said...

I always enjoy reading your posts
You write so well,
I had never given much thought to the 'arc de triomphe' in Paris, for me, it was just some tourist attraction to see.

You are right, sometimes after too many unfortunate incidents one beings to give in to the thoughts that one is under some curse or just jinxed.
Thanks for this post. I am reminded ...I can do ALL things through Christ......
More grace!

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Dammy said...

Amen.

I am a life-giver and not a self-killer!



Hope you are good?

Uzezi said...

Amen. these are words we need to read everyday, remind ourselves of to understand the power we hold being children of God.

Kafo said...

how can i not be first
hmmm

okay i'm going to go and read it now

Kafo said...

mercy
self killer
Father help mii so i am not a self killer, open my eyes so that i will see You and your love and grace and not be bound by fear

Danny Bagucci said...

Another powerful word Jaycee....Kind of needed to hear this at the moment...

Funms-the rebirth said...

self killers......... gosh, ive been thinking about this lately..... this is such a confirmation. thanx

Afrobabe said...

Amen oh...this is especially for me...I have to keep reminding myself that worry never solved any problem and the fight is not mine so no need to be overly serious or worried...

rethots said...

Wow!!! is brings to mind when Balaam was asked to curse.....and he could not......

True, we sure bother ourselves (and expend much time worrying) about if things don't go right rather than just be grateful (with faith) that all is well.

Nice one.

simeone said...

yes o..you are speaking in correct tenses..
thanks..this is so inspiring

NoLimit said...

You never cease to deliver on point!!!...I always leave your post blessed and added to positively.

Kaydey said...

very timely message
One of my very good friends told me that this was a year of putting no limits on God because our God is one of no limits
That made me understand that if it is the case , it's only the mind that will limit the dreams that we have .....

Writefreak said...

I always like your imagery!

There is no divination against Israel and no enchantment against Jacob!....no weapon fashioned against me shall prosper...so no one is in charge of my destiny but God and I

Hope you're fine dear

StandTall-The Activist said...

I am an advocate of dont blame your issues on others epscially imaginery wizard and witches. I storngly beleive in trying to figure out what God is trying to tell me if I face difficulties...

I love this piece! And yes, greeting from India

chichi from terc said...

Jaycee, after reading this entry and a tip off from some of the comments I read Numbers 22-24, I feel like jumping up and down and praising God like I'm in church! Hallelujah and glory be to God!

The Life of a Stranger called me said...

My dreams the Lord will bring to pass. I just need to believe that my awsome God is great enough to handle it..... Oh thank you wonderful saviour for such a love you've lavished on me......... Oh how I love you..

The experiences of an achiever....... said...

so true...may God strengthen us all, I will not be a SELF killer in Jesus' Name! Amen!

SECRET DIARY said...

Omo Oba, ki lo de? Na waaaaa ohhh.

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Mii komment has bin safed, hand will be fiisible after di owner appruvaal.

simeone said...

where are you now....?

Lindah said...

TiZ not good to blame others when we fail. We should seek for his guidance to make us sail through our problems.
Thanks for sharing.

OluwaDee said...

"stop waiting for someone to undo the curse or to bless you...you need to push yourself now."

Spoken well.

How are you doing?

Enkay said...

I was talking to a friend of mine just yesterday about how we usually do not like to take responsibility for our own lives but rather blame it on some unseen hand or curse.

I am a firm believer of the saying that "man's destiny is what he makes it" even though we cannot do anything without God, we must first be sure what it is we want Him to help us do!

I am not a self-killer, I am a life-giver! Amen!

PS: I am quite sure I've been to your blog b4, but I do not remember if I ever left a comment. Your blog is an inspiring one!

Hadassah said...

Amen

mystoriesmytestimonies said...

love this post....

ShawnDaVinci said...

Your blog is so graphically appealing. Are you an artist? Nice post...lovely. And thanks for dropping by

doug said...

Love, like everything else in life is a choice. This is a thing which we almost always forget.

PS: I LOOOOOOOVE SWITCHFOOT!!!!

Favourite songs "This is your life" (which suits this post in my opinion) and "Politicians".

You rock!!!

Hugs!

Jaycee said...

Ha ha ha...

Honestly people, your comments really crack me up and give me so much joy, it's just so annoying that work will not let me reply every single comment...busy bee...he he.

@ Olufunke...wow, all of you travelers! Pls put me in your suitcase when next you're travelling to Paris, ok? :)

LOLLL @ Doug...

@ Shawn...I'm a self-acclaimed artist...:)

@ Dammy & Writefreak and Oluwadee and Simeone...don't worry o, this girl right here is doing really well, as in I can't even shout. I can't thank God enough for all the wonderful things He's been doing jare. Its His blessings that are keeping me busy and on my toes! :)

@ Chich from Terc, Numbers 22 and 24...oooooh...I'm off to read it too. I want to know what u read...lol.

@ Standtall, you're in India. Gosh, I'm so jealous. I wanna go to the Taj Mahal some day o...

Kafo said...

i'm loving your playlist

as usual

Jaycee said...

Yay!

Anonymous said...

WOW!!!....This is my first time of reading your blog!!....You are a breath of fresh air. Thank you for reminding me that I need to encourage myself and get up and fulfil that dream. With God on my side, I shall not fail...Keep up d gud work dear...peace!