
Who can understand his own errors?
It had always been a premeditated action. Sworn into deceit and connived into fraudulence, she became a captive to her own erroneous actions. It was not that she did not know that the things she did were wrong, she just always found herself doing the same thing over and over again. Only she knew about them! Yes, she knew the secret things she did at night when she was all alone. She knew the whereabouts of the missing files at work, and of course she knew the reason why her girlfriend's man left the babe in shambles. She also knew the source of her boss' smiles, and about the gifts he gave her.
Tonight, she would go out again for a 'girls-night-out' and they would sit around the chocolate-colored coffee table to discuss shocking tales about conniving bastards at their various social networks. Yet again, she would laugh in disgust and contribute her own opinions, denying any part of such nonsense. But the next day she would become someone else again and manipulate people to fulfill her own wretched desires...
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In Psalm 19:12-14, David wrote a song about self-deceit. He said, "who can understand his own errors? Cleanse me from secret faults and presumptuous sins. Let those sins not have dominion over me so that I can be blameless."
Many times, people know the "right" and "wrong", but nevertheless they still do the exact opposite. Thus far, you've been going around in circles fighting your so-called inner demons. But seriously, are you really fighting them? Or are you lying to yourself?
Fighting something is going all the way until you win. Imagine those heavy-weight champions on the boxing ring, you never see them quit just because blood oozes out of their noses. No, they get back up again and keep boxing. It probably took them years of training to endure the blood and the pain. Meanwhile, when no one is looking at you, you go back to your "secret sins." You go back to those things because you feel that no one is watching, and well, you can always ask for forgiveness anyway.
Yes, God always has his hands open to us, and you are very right. But remember the parable of the rich fool who thought he had his life all stretched out before him like a sheet of gold, and yet that very night his life was required of him and he left this world without any of his riches? I pray that you will live a long and prosperous life-- but you have to know that your life is not in your hands. You have to stop doing whatever it is that makes you watch the shadows to see if anyone is looking at you. Oh God is looking, He's always looking! He sees through the depths of your heart and knows all that you think and do in secret. If you know that you have some "secret faults," make them open to God and let Him in so that He will help you stop them. There is no battle that cannot be won. There are no impossibilities with God. Trust him to live a consistently good life...
Πάντα ῥεῖ καὶ οὐδὲν μένει-- everything flows, nothing stands still (the only constant is change) ~ Plato (Greek)
Whenever you choose to change for the better, your life automatically gains more value. Don't be stagnant in your secret sins, take a hold of Jesus' garment and let Him make you whole again ~ My take.
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Whenever you choose to change for the better, your life automatically gains more value. Don't be stagnant in your secret sins, take a hold of Jesus' garment and let Him make you whole again ~ My take.
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