"Secret Sinner:"


Who can understand his own errors?

It had always been a premeditated action. Sworn into deceit and connived into fraudulence, she became a captive to her own erroneous actions. It was not that she did not know that the things she did were wrong, she just always found herself doing the same thing over and over again. Only she knew about them! Yes, she knew the secret things she did at night when she was all alone. She knew the whereabouts of the missing files at work, and of course she knew the reason why her girlfriend's man left the babe in shambles. She also knew the source of her boss' smiles, and about the gifts he gave her.

Tonight, she would go out again for a 'girls-night-out' and they would sit around the chocolate-colored coffee table to discuss shocking tales about conniving bastards at their various social networks. Yet again, she would laugh in disgust and contribute her own opinions, denying any part of such nonsense. But the next day she would become someone else again and manipulate people to fulfill her own wretched desires...

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In Psalm 19:12-14, David wrote a song about self-deceit. He said, "who can understand his own errors? Cleanse me from secret faults and presumptuous sins. Let those sins not have dominion over me so that I can be blameless."

Many times, people know the "right" and "wrong", but nevertheless they still do the exact opposite. Thus far, you've been going around in circles fighting your so-called inner demons. But seriously, are you really fighting them? Or are you lying to yourself?

Fighting something is going all the way until you win. Imagine those heavy-weight champions on the boxing ring, you never see them quit just because blood oozes out of their noses. No, they get back up again and keep boxing. It probably took them years of training to endure the blood and the pain. Meanwhile, when no one is looking at you, you go back to your "secret sins." You go back to those things because you feel that no one is watching, and well, you can always ask for forgiveness anyway.

Yes, God always has his hands open to us, and you are very right. But remember the parable of the rich fool who thought he had his life all stretched out before him like a sheet of gold, and yet that very night his life was required of him and he left this world without any of his riches? I pray that you will live a long and prosperous life-- but you have to know that your life is not in your hands. You have to stop doing whatever it is that makes you watch the shadows to see if anyone is looking at you. Oh God is looking, He's always looking! He sees through the depths of your heart and knows all that you think and do in secret. If you know that you have some "secret faults," make them open to God and let Him in so that He will help you stop them. There is no battle that cannot be won. There are no impossibilities with God. Trust him to live a consistently good life...

Πάντα ῥεῖ καὶ οὐδὲν μένει-- everything flows, nothing stands still (the only constant is change) ~ Plato (Greek)

Whenever you choose to change for the better, your life automatically gains more value. Don't be stagnant in your secret sins, take a hold of Jesus' garment and let Him make you whole again ~ My take.

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36 comments:

Funms-the rebirth said...

my first thought when i woke up this morning was how much i wanted u to update..... change is constant.... nothing can stay hidden from God and definitely nothing stays d same

Danny Bagucci said...

OUCH! Hits very close to home here.

Maybe the problem is that we have not given as much effort to the FIGHT as we have to wallowing in the temporary delights of the fall..

Gee said...

NOT FIRST!!!
OOOOOO...LOL

Lyrically speaking said...

I am loving this post, great writing!! It's been a while since i've been on your blog

Anonymous said...

I like this.
chichi

Jaycee said...

Funms...r u serious? Then let me pause to say thanks to God for the grace to update...I've been wanting to do so...thanks for reading and receiving God's word the way it is, without any "mago-mago!" Just the way it is! May God guide you in your walk with Him, even as you store riches in a place where no one can see...at least for now. *Hugs*

Danny Bagucci...first let me say that you usually give me a great deal of INSIGHT whenever you get the chance to slip in a note. I want to stress here that those "temporary delights of the fall" are very short-lived...just like the twinkle of an eye. The reason they're so short-lived is that the devil never gives happiness for a long time, in his happiness there's always a twist of sorrow. But when we find the joy of God, there's no added sorrow. I guess that should be a motivation for us to keep fighting any inner demons and receive a more PERMANENT delight (instead of wasting time on what's only temporary). Right?

Gee...don't mind them jare! It is well!

Lyrically Speaking...hiiiii...long time too! :)

Jaycee said...

Chichi...I love the fact that God gave us a book as a reminder to these things. Hope ur day is being fantastic! :)

Kémi Penélopê said...

Before I comment...I personally believe there are blogizens who just camp in front of your Villa...Haba! when will I ever be first...
Ok, I am going to Oyinbo market right now (LOL) to get a mat & latern for the long future camping holiday in front of Jaycee's place...anyways, back to reading.

Kémi Penélopê said...

I am not pointing fingers because I know I am as guilty as charge…from the time, when I stole meat from Mama’s pot when I was just seven to the sophisticated ‘Secret sin’ I have committed in maturity...
I can only pray that Baba God, have mercy on me for those times, for you, God know all secrets and everything before it happens. I ”throw reason aside, making no effort to turn my eyes to Heaven, and forgetting the demand for virtue”...God just give me strength to overcome our weakness...Amen

simeone said...

hmmm....something to think about..
thank you Father..
..(thanking Him for seeing me through, now i'm all i am because of who God is..)

Mimi said...

hhmm. truth be told!! let the truth always be told.

am i fighting enough? Lord give me the grace to wear my armor and just keep STANDING! having done all, i'll keep standing!

Kafo said...

i screwed up last thursday and i'm having a hard time getting over it

i couldn't sleep last night cuz i felt like crap as if i was a hypocrit cuz every one thought i was holy and pure and this and that

during the day i just pack it full of stuff so i don't have to address the issue

i am determined to overcome but still looking in the mirror helps

hmmm
this post doesn't really describe mii cuz i have already realized that this slippery slope nonsense must stop

i guess its the forgiving yourself
i don't know
i'm rambling
but yeah
i needed to read this
have a beautiful summer

of course Building 429 song is a fave i should have on my ipod but don't so thanks for that also

Writefreak said...

Deliver me from secret sins o Lord, search my heart and find me true!

BSNC said...

i am feeling this post. i liked the boxing example.. they never quit. i wish people could be more like that.

nevender said...

I have this problem...my urges are magnetic...

Adaeze said...

You are so on point. I love when you say that fighting is fighting till you WIN. Yes. Thanks for sharpening my mind.

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jhazmyn said...

Reminds me of a phase in my life some years back...just couldnt break away from the hidden sins until i truthfully told myself that i kept falling cos i actually enjoyed the temporary thrills, but then, shall we continue in sin that grace may abound?...God forbid, thank God i'm outta that phase.

So spot on, we need to fight till the end..till we come out victorious

The Life of a Stranger called me said...

A reminder of my life forever in progress. I thank God that I am not unaware of my shortcomings. And even more grateful that with His help, I will contunue to strive to get better.

Lady A said...

This is good!
IT's the afterward one has to deal with when fallen into tempatation. So important to forgive yourself, that's the key to move on..after you asked God for forgivness. Remember no condemnation. The devil tries to get us with that..be strong, God has forgiven.

Believer said...

I needed this, really ties in with my next post. Paul says we should examine our own selves to know if we are still in the faith..most times I'm examining others, thank God for His mercy, He showed up with a torchlight the other day and I was certainly found wanting..God bless you, you are a treasure in the kingdom

Tairebabs said...

Hey Jaycee, this was such a powerful post. I really needed it as well. Took a minute to say a prayer while reading. Thanks!

Homie GFunk said...

This aspect of my walk with God keeps me humbled... It's so amazing how He still takes us back... I know I wouldn't take me back! But then again it is better to just allow Him to invade our lives so that He can get all the junk in us out...Then we can walk blameless before Him by His power not ours.

Uzezi said...

positive and really good. i have missed coming here.

trully, nothing is impossible with God.

The poets voice ~~~ said...

There is no battle that can't be won and ironically change is the only constant. Sometimes we don't really 'fight' our innner battles and other times we just don't have the strength. The thing is we need His strength to overcome our weakness.

Other times we let guilt and self pity stand in the way allowing us to continue to wallow in sin...this is a quick road to a very bad fall! If God looked upon the blood of Jesus and forgave us, who are we not to forgive ourselves?

This was a message for me..thanx so much for posting! stay blessed.x

Kafo said...

i came back for the music

Buttercup said...

Wow..you couldn't have said this any better. May God help us all..

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~Sirius~ said...

Wow....Shame on me for not coming here recently.

Thanks Jaycee, as always....very insightful...we have to embrace good change.

About Left behind.....so true.
Like you said, we have to stay focused on our 1st love.
God.

Parakeet said...

I dientify with this. Another brilliant post.

rethots said...

True, very true. Even though we really wish 'em (the secret sins) except we consciously make a choice, we shall continually drift back.

CHOICE and more importantly GRACE are needed as one to overcome this.

Omo Oba said...

hm.

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Olamild said...

May God help us all

justdoyin said...

I can relate well to this post as I once had my own "secret sins", but God delivered me...it's also true that u have to FIGHT with all ur might, n keep fighting until u win...I did, n I won! praise God! thanks for this...

babajidesalu said...

Jaycee, yet another very straight to the heart post.

We all have our secrets. Well secrets to man but not to God.

We need to let go and I like the quote by Plato - "everything flows, nothing stands still (the only constant is change)"

Thank you for your inspiring words and God bless you forever.

taKia