My Wait Reaches the Threshold of Craziness:


Not fiction:

There are days when I am strong, but today is not one of those days. I suddenly feel like the Israelites, marching aimlessly in the desert for 40 years when the path should have taken them only 11 days. I am still in my early twenties, and I know what and who I am supposed to be, but the wait is becoming really crazy. I want to see everything unfold before my eyes soon because I don't want to lose hope.

So my prayer for today is, "Lord, please show me the power of Your mighty right hand. Show me that certain things which men have deemed impossible, are really possible...that there is nothing (and there has never been anything) impossible with You. I know I'm going to finish my Masters and get a great position, but seriously I need these impossibilities to clear away so that I can focus on finishing it. I need financial strength, a good position in a good company, and even more. You promised that You will bring everything into completion. And I believe You. Help any trace of unbelief to vanish. Please watch over Your word jealously so that I will give You a shouting testimony." 

Today, these are the things that are truly tugging on my heart and I wanted to share them with you.

In other news, I heard Michael Spencer of http://www.internetmonk.com/ just lost the battle to cancer and I am sad, even if I only started reading his blog, and even if I'm not catholic.

In more news, the folks on my twitter timeline ROCK! You guys crack me up every time I don't resist the urge to open up my tweetdeck. If you aren't following the folks on my timeline you're really missing out, I tell ya! http://www.twitter.com/lightherlamp

Will resume the "True Celebrities Series" tomorrow (if you haven't read any parts yet, feel free to click on the link and satisfy your curiosity). Two posts in one day--> oops, I apologize to email subscribers because you'll be receiving another email tomorrow morning as well, lol. Your love will cause you to keep reading, so I'm not worried. Love, from Jaycee :)

Photo by Shai (flickr)

21 comments:

F said...

I totally feel this post because we all have those days from time to time. Your prayer said it all... All we can pray for is to get through...

Harry-Rami Itie said...

I think I need to pray that prayer myself

Rita said...

Amen...May God strengthen you as you wait on Him and unfold to you in His beautiful time the fulfilment of His great and precious promises to you.

Take care...this too shall pass and thanks for sharing with us...

The nitty-gritty tales of a housewife said...

Don't we all JAY? It is WELL through HIS GRACE. SHALOM

Favor's Heart said...

Hmmm....you know i asked God once if he liked it when we feel despondent and uncertain...d he showed me how that magnifies him and allows him show himself so strong on his children's behalf that anyone that sees/hears (including us) can testify that "this could only have been God"

Jaycee...He's coming through for you...no doubt. It gets darker just before dawn. Light is breaking forth.

Stay strong dear...

Couldn't resist adding this "But GOD's not finished. He's waiting around to be gracious to you. He's gathering strength to show mercy to you. GOD takes the time to do everything right--everything. Those who wait around for him are the lucky ones. Isa 30:18 (MSG)

2cute4u said...

This post is so real.Dare I say some days are like that..Hope things just get better.take care.

Mwajim Al said...

Remember the song: "Our strength will raise as we wait upon the Lord"... remember the verse: "Those who wait upon the Lord will not grow weak or weary, but their strength will mount up as eagles..." Your strength will raise dear because you have acknowledged Him in this, so do not loose hope, for remember that God's timing is the best!
Take care, and looking forward to tomorrow's post :)

NakedSha said...

Leave the midst of everything.

Drown yourself in worship/praise.

'When prayer delays, turn to praises.' I have held on to that for a long time.

I'm so sure you will be refreshed!

Jaycee said...

I am so refreshed, recharged, rejuvenated especially after reading the scriptures that you guys have provided. "Thank You Father for using these ones to remind me of Your priceless promises, and to remind me of that sweet aroma that can always be found in Your presence." I smell the beginning of new testimonies.

@Favor's Heart...it does get darker before the dawn creeps up on us.

@Nakedsha...that just made me smile and praise God. Thank you.

Homie GFunk said...

Hang in there dear. Sometimes when I go through my moments like this I remind myself that the Word says, "I will yet see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living." :)

daylight said...

Hang on. The wait can seem like forever but it has an end. Just remain strong.

Miss M said...

Stay strong babe:) God is ABLE.

You should listen to Lara George's "Hallelujah"

http://www.myspace.com/LARAGEORGE

LE DYNAMIQUE PROFESSEUR said...

Waiting is not wasting. While you wait, I pray God's strength, grace and intestinal fortitude to carry on. It is well :)

- LDP

Olubern said...
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Olubern said...

Just believe, when all looks dark, there is narrow path of faith God has provided. If he said it, his word will not come back to him void until it has accomplished that for which it is sent.

TayneMent said...

like everyone has said. This too shall pass. feel better!


RIP to the monk.

BBB said...

exactly how i feel right now!!!
but my refuge is God

jhazmyn said...

Lots of hugs love.

The waiting sure seems long sometimes but like the saying goes...there's always sunshine after...My prayers are with you all the way...much love

Rainyjoy said...

hey hun, am glad you could share your feelings in regards to God fulfilling His promises in your life... my dear God is faithful to the end and He will complete and perfect every good work He has started in you.
i loved the title of this post- my wait reaches the threshold of craziness, lol ! its funny how sometimes i feel like am weird/ mysterious/ crazy while i wait for God to unfold His plans for my life and bring His promises to past but He knows the right time to bring us into the glorious moments of our lives. All we have to do is trust, trust and keep trusting in Him. He is more than ABLE.
thanks 4 being a blessing 2 all of us.
love u
may His strength be made perfect in your weakness.

Jaycee said...

Thank you so much guys...so I'm fired up once again...feel renewed, thanks to you lot...:)

Kafo said...

I am still in my early twenties, and I know what and who I am supposed to be, but the wait is becoming really crazy. I want to see everything unfold before my eyes soon because I don't want to lose hope.


my thoughts your words

may God continue to bless and pour on patience in doses that you can tolerate